I didn’t hate my mother for abandoning me; in fact, I think I would thank her if I ever recognized her. Her “mothering” ultimately led me to live life in what seemed like that lap of luxury – big house, many presents, and a daddy who suddenly decided he had a lot to make for. Buying my affection was the easiest way for him to make amends, and I was easily bought – until the next shiny, new toy caught my attention, and suddenly I would wake up crying for the mommy who left me. Guilt isn’t just a tool for parents, kiddies.